Daddy!

God is so faithful. And amazing. And just awesome. Like, awesome awesome.

God has just blown my mind so much this week. This whole semester He begged me to trust Him. He told me over and over again that it was going to be okay and He was going to take care of me. I didn't need to worry about anything... but I did. And even though God told me He was going to take care of me, I still begged for Him to follow through with His promises.

I caused myself so much pain by not trusting God. If I had only had faith and really believed what God was telling me, I would have been so much better off.

I knew, I knew God wasn't going to come through. I just had it engraved in the back of my mind that there was no way God was going to give me what I want. I thought God wanted to teach me a lesson by not giving me what I wanted. I thought He was going to show me that all I need is Him.

However, God has been teaching me a different aspect of Himself that I never believed was all that everyone says it is. It's too good to be true. God is my Father. He loves me like my daddy loves me and He wants to see me happy. He wants to love me and spend time with me. He desires my love and my happiness in Him. He cares so deeply and truly about me that nothing can ever harm me because God is going to protect me. God loves me. But I always thought of this love as like a love of a Creator. I never understood that God loves me as a Father. Creator and Father kind of go together, but they're still so totally different. God is my Father.

I think a lot of people go without understanding this because they don't have good fathers, but I honestly believe my dad is the best dad out there. That is so cliché, but I honestly believe it. Without my dad, I wouldn't be able to understand the type of love that God is. I wouldn't be able to understand this fatherly love. But... I do have an amazing dad, so I'm beginning to understand that God loves me as a Father.

and... in case you were wondering - the great thing that I needed to trust God about... Thiago is coming to Memphis on December 29!!!

There's gonna no more of this for a couple of weeks!